Comfort with a bowl of soup

In Memory of Ozzie

No one wants to talk about it. I guess I can’t blame them. It’s adifficult and painful subject.

Grief.

You see a little over a week ago, we lost one of our feline familymembers. No – he wasn’t sick. In fact, there were signs that he had been playing with his favorite ball earlier that day. How did this happen? Hypertrophic cardiomyopathy. That’s what the vet tells me. And with a cat that had no signs of the disease, it’s almost impossible to detect until it’s too late.

How do you deal with sudden death? No matter if it’s a pet or a human?

People deal with grief in different ways. Some people don’t deal with it all. How do you pick up the pieces and move on each day when it seems that you are frozen at one point in time? It’s not an easy task but it must done.

After 2 days, running 15 miles and with nothing more than a few bites of food (I do not condone this for anyone), I was feeling the toll  – emotionally and physically. I’m not a stress eater. Eating is very difficult for me during times of extreme emotional stress. I know – I’m a dietitian, I know better. But I’m also human.

Cooking has always been a stress reliever for me. It allows me to focus on what I am doing at that moment and forget about things.  Trying to return to some sort of normalcy, I needed to try and find comfort in doing something I enjoy. I wanted and needed to make something easy and something heart-warming – soup. This soup is virtually a no-brainer for me – I’ve made it a hundred times before – White Bean, Kale and Sausage Soup. I’ve also made some different variations – some times add pasta, some times make it vegetarian,  but this time I just kept it basic.

This is about the time when I tell you all about the glorious nutrition found in that bowl of soup. While there really is a  lot of good stuff going on in there,  today I’m not going to. I won’t lie – this post was hard for me. I really didn’t want to write any sort of post at all. But I knew I had to. Grief is painful. And while I searched for some comfort in the bottom of my soup bowl, I knew I just really needed time.

So I hope that if you find yourself grieving, you can soon return to some sort of normalcy. In the meantime, have a bowl of soup and enjoy.